I feel like I have lost my way. I don’t know what to say any more about the last four years. My sister and I can talk about all the harm and deception that took place from the forced vaccinations but there is no one else I can share my feelings of loss and grief.
I suffered in anguish for the last 4 years. I have always suffered from adverse drug reactions. I have documented over 35 instances of bad reactions to various medical procedures. Gaslighting is the norm. "Oh it couldn't possibly have been that nitrous oxide anesthesia you took last week. Maybe antidepressants can help?" I want to share that I suffered child abuse at the hands of my stepfather when I was 12 or 13. When my housekeeper and grandmother urged me to control him and tell my mother I reluctantly agreed anticipating his payback. My mother didn't believe me. She told me I made it up! I wasn't wrong about the payback. My mother blamed me for getting abused, and my step father blamed me for reporting it.
Now any time I get injured or even believe I got injured or even FEAR injury--and no one believes me--I'm emotionally distraught! Back at age 13 with both my parents claiming I don't love them so they get to mistreat me.
Have you listened to Bessel van der Kolk? He wrote a book, "The Body Keeps the Score" about how we may continue to have "weird" symptoms years after the abuse. And these symptoms can get triggered whenever events trigger the same traumatic situation.
Covid was horrible! Vaccine policies were EVEN MORE horrible! Government censorship horrible--and attempts to limit it seem as though they are failing or going to fail. Good thing that people are starting to decline boosters--especially for children.
My therapists refused to allow me to talk about vaccines. One (a registered nurse) declined to talk because she "knew nothing about vaccines." (REALLY?) Another stated he works with physicians at John's Hopkins and belongs to "the consensus medical establishment." So what do I belong to? The other consensus medical establishment?
When I tried to talk about my fears of getting incarcerated by my governor Kathy Hochul, he had nothing to say. Recently he explained that because I was paranoid he couldn't address this fear. I wish he had tried.
My therapist was VERY concerned and sympathetic to all those paralyzed with fear over Covid. He donated his free time to helping to form a supportive community to offer free supportive therapy to all those desperate to avoid infection. What about those who, instead, were desperate to avoid injection? I had nightmares of getting rejected because I forgot to bring my mask. This often happened because although I'm 81, I feel completely safe from Covid. Instead I worry about the dangers of masking, lock downs, and (shudder) mRNA.
Have you seen the movie, "Invasion of the Body Snatchers?" Alien beings from outer space land in major cities and gradually replace every resident with an emotionless, brain washed, compliant clone. They immediately become outraged and point their fingers at any "uncloned" (unvaccinated!) person who hasn't yet been converted. to the hive mind
Eventually I realized that Covid is not a big threat, the CDC lies, the vaccines are, indeed, unsafe as Jessica Rose repeatedly points out on her substack, the government will never repent for what they did, people don't want to believe the doctors they trust could, instead, be killing them.
You thought this might be that they regret admitting they were wrong. No, I think there's a bigger reason. It's actually the same reason as before: FEAR. First of all, censorship never allows people to come across dissenting opinions. People don't like to go against public opinion, let alone the science of medical consensus. Also they start to get SCARED that they might get sick--and they maybe don't want to give up their snug feelings of superiority.
God bless my therapist. Even though he recognized that our feelings are totally opposed, he reassures me that will not cause him to reject me. "We don't have to cancel each other. We can still maintain a therapeutic relationship even if we disagree."
Recently I made a breakthrough. "Please help me cope with my fear--even though it may be completely unfounded." He finally agreed. What is it like to finally listen to a minority whose fears you have always dismissed as unfounded? The world or at least your world view gets totally expanded.
Please do not give up writing your newsletter--even as you feel overwhelmed by the lack of support that you are experiencing for your position. I think people who feel as you do may finally be approaching the majority (the tipping point)
We will all sing the Wizard of Oz Song, "It's a brand new day!" and sing and dance our way into happiness--holding hands with each other. (In case Governor Hochul hasn't incarcerated us in her concentration camps, or in case Prime Minister Trudeau hasn't euthanized us. or frozen our bank accounts.) LOL
I suffered in anguish for the last 4 years. I have always suffered from adverse drug reactions. I have documented over 35 instances of bad reactions to various medical procedures. Gaslighting is the norm. "Oh it couldn't possibly have been that nitrous oxide anesthesia you took last week. Maybe antidepressants can help?" I want to share that I suffered child abuse at the hands of my stepfather when I was 12 or 13. When my housekeeper and grandmother urged me to control him and tell my mother I reluctantly agreed anticipating his payback. My mother didn't believe me. She told me I made it up! I wasn't wrong about the payback. My mother blamed me for getting abused, and my step father blamed me for reporting it.
Now any time I get injured or even believe I got injured or even FEAR injury--and no one believes me--I'm emotionally distraught! Back at age 13 with both my parents claiming I don't love them so they get to mistreat me.
Have you listened to Bessel van der Kolk? He wrote a book, "The Body Keeps the Score" about how we may continue to have "weird" symptoms years after the abuse. And these symptoms can get triggered whenever events trigger the same traumatic situation.
Covid was horrible! Vaccine policies were EVEN MORE horrible! Government censorship horrible--and attempts to limit it seem as though they are failing or going to fail. Good thing that people are starting to decline boosters--especially for children.
My therapists refused to allow me to talk about vaccines. One (a registered nurse) declined to talk because she "knew nothing about vaccines." (REALLY?) Another stated he works with physicians at John's Hopkins and belongs to "the consensus medical establishment." So what do I belong to? The other consensus medical establishment?
When I tried to talk about my fears of getting incarcerated by my governor Kathy Hochul, he had nothing to say. Recently he explained that because I was paranoid he couldn't address this fear. I wish he had tried.
My therapist was VERY concerned and sympathetic to all those paralyzed with fear over Covid. He donated his free time to helping to form a supportive community to offer free supportive therapy to all those desperate to avoid infection. What about those who, instead, were desperate to avoid injection? I had nightmares of getting rejected because I forgot to bring my mask. This often happened because although I'm 81, I feel completely safe from Covid. Instead I worry about the dangers of masking, lock downs, and (shudder) mRNA.
Have you seen the movie, "Invasion of the Body Snatchers?" Alien beings from outer space land in major cities and gradually replace every resident with an emotionless, brain washed, compliant clone. They immediately become outraged and point their fingers at any "uncloned" (unvaccinated!) person who hasn't yet been converted. to the hive mind
Eventually I realized that Covid is not a big threat, the CDC lies, the vaccines are, indeed, unsafe as Jessica Rose repeatedly points out on her substack, the government will never repent for what they did, people don't want to believe the doctors they trust could, instead, be killing them.
You thought this might be that they regret admitting they were wrong. No, I think there's a bigger reason. It's actually the same reason as before: FEAR. First of all, censorship never allows people to come across dissenting opinions. People don't like to go against public opinion, let alone the science of medical consensus. Also they start to get SCARED that they might get sick--and they maybe don't want to give up their snug feelings of superiority.
God bless my therapist. Even though he recognized that our feelings are totally opposed, he reassures me that will not cause him to reject me. "We don't have to cancel each other. We can still maintain a therapeutic relationship even if we disagree."
Recently I made a breakthrough. "Please help me cope with my fear--even though it may be completely unfounded." He finally agreed. What is it like to finally listen to a minority whose fears you have always dismissed as unfounded? The world or at least your world view gets totally expanded.
Please do not give up writing your newsletter--even as you feel overwhelmed by the lack of support that you are experiencing for your position. I think people who feel as you do may finally be approaching the majority (the tipping point)
We will all sing the Wizard of Oz Song, "It's a brand new day!" and sing and dance our way into happiness--holding hands with each other. (In case Governor Hochul hasn't incarcerated us in her concentration camps, or in case Prime Minister Trudeau hasn't euthanized us. or frozen our bank accounts.) LOL